Compassionate

Me : i’m suffering, only God knows how hurt i am.
Friend : only heartless people treat you like this. Hence, he is not worth it. Don’t suffer for a heartless guy like him. Karma will hit him and if you’re lucky, you’ll get to see it.
Me : what if I don’t want karma to hit him? I don’t want him to feel what I’m feeling now.
Friend : Allah tu maha adil. If someone treats you like this, it is wrong and clearly doing something wrong, you will get what you deserve sooner or later. You might not want him to feel what you’re feeling right now, but if he deserves to feel it, Allah will put him in your shoes.
Me : I love him so much that I know if he suffers, I’d rather take the pain away from him and let me suffer, let him be okay. I never once in my life, regretted knowing him or his friends. Because they are all very nice to me. Despite how he’s treating me now, leaving me hanging with 1001 questions unanswered for more than a month already, I still pray that one day, Allah will make him realize how sincere I am to him. I really don’t want him to feel, not even a little of what I am feeling now ‘cause I can promise you that it hurts so bad. It’s even hard for me to sleep at night and even to wake up. It’s hard for me to eat, it’s hard for me to do anything.
Friend : why are you letting him win? If he knows that you’re suffering, I can promise you he will feel relieved and happy that you’re suffering. He will feel that ‘yess! She’s suffering and I’m not’ why would you want a heartless person to win? He left you hanging for more than a month, he didn’t wish you on your birthday, he’s heartless. Stop suffering over him and for him!
Me : let me suffer as long as he doesn’t. Yes I’m hurt but I don’t seek revenge in people. I get hurt seeing the people I love, hurt. And I feel that he won’t say like that, because I know he is different. Although you might say those words are crap, but I feel that he is different. It’s just that he has not seen it yet. Although it breaks my heart now seeing him changing to the person he said to me he won’t be, but I know one day Allah will guide him.
Friend : Ya Allah b, I swear if I was him, despite what you do I will keep you in my arms. You are worth suffering for. You know why? You’re the first person I know that, after a guy has treat you badly for more than a month but you still pray for him, you don’t want him to feel what you’re feeling. That’s true love and he is missing out on his true love. Trust me, it’s alright to suffer now because I promise you even if you don’t want to, one day he will get what he deserves for putting you through this misery. Allah tu maha adil.