Compassionate

Today marks the 50th day. Ive come this far, I cant break down again. But there’s just times when I need to break down and cry. I am extremely tired of pretending that I am fine. Some people believed the laughter I gave, the smile I put on my face but some can see that I am just covering things up. But honestly, no one knows the battle I have to go through every single day. Up to this point, even I don’t know how I can still love him. Why is he being completely heartless? I am exhausted. I wanna get out of this misery, please. One day. One day God will make him realize, and hopefully that day will come real soon.